[muscles and curves]

but you have to be impressively un-appealling as a female, and as a person really, to mess up taking someone to Disneyland FOR FREE because they don’t want to spend the day with you THAT MUCH.

:(

It’s just motivation.

I’m gonna look bangin in that graduation dress :)

(You don’t want me. But that’s ok, because you don’t deserve me. Not even as a friend)

I’ve been following opfabs since the beginning but have just been lagging on officially committing my participation. (scared maybe?)

Operation FINE/FULFILLED in Any Bathing Suit.

At nearly 250 lbs. nothing will actually get me fabulous or fit or fierce in a bathing suit in three short months. But I think I’ve already decided that what I need most in my life right now has little to do with my physical appearance. (Man, has it taken a long time for me to figure that out.)

Above all, my goal is to feel fulfilled again. I feel like I’ve been failing in all areas of my life lately (school, work, work2, work3, health) and I just need to feel accomplished again. Not in any big sense, but just enough to feel like I’m checking things of a figurative list. That I am capable of carrying out my goals and achieving them.

And fine. I’ve visiting my best friend in Phoenix at the end of July for our birthdays. For poolside bathing suits, shopping shorts and dinner dresses, I just want to feel fine and completely unconcerned with how I look, how much my fat arms show etc. etc. Obviously this is also a very mental thing, but improving on the physical couldn’t hurt.

2 big goals:

• Lose 20 lbs. (So basically under 230)
• Finish C25K (for real this time) (starting Monday)

Other goals:

• Run a 5K
• Register for a late 2012/early 2013 half marathon
• Buy a bathing suit
• Hike Garcia

To hinder myself from being overwhelmed, I’m gonna just start with this week’s challenges. (and pictures will be posted in another post)

I’ve also enjoyed reading all of your’s goals and progress. Kick ass ladies!